An update on all things Logan =)

so, Logan started PT this last Monday. We didn't do a whole bunch, the goal of the first appointment is to assess and see what they feel is needed. I didn't have to do a whole bunch of talking, just kind of helped them get some stuff done with him(his favorite word as of late is NO) so at the end of the appointment we still can't figure out what it is that is causing all of this...which is a lil discouraging because the more we rule out, the closer to cerebral palsy we are. I'm not terribly upset about it, Its not going to be a huge set back and I won't look at him any differently. Its just discouraging that if this it what it is, it took us 2 years to catch it..sooo the PT has suggested that we have him fitted for braces. All I'm waiting for is the place that makes and fits them, to call me with an appointment, its been 2 days and so far nothing, I'm a bit discouraged with that...other than that, we are potty training and doing quite well, for the most part he comes to me and tells me when he has to go and its rare that he has any accidents except for poop...go figure
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yeah isn't he cute? This is after one of those nice poo painting sessions where you just wanna scream! I love my life...yes, i really do *sigh*

I think I'm gonna be sick.....

Not sure how much I'll update for a while. Just some personal things going on that I'm not going to air for the entire world to see. A COUPLE of you know what's going on and that's as far as its going right now. Just pretty much I feel stupid and humiliated and I really should have seen it coming. I should have known better. So for now, if I'm distant and I don't answer your phone calls or your emails or your IM's or your texts..just bear with me. Quite frankly I'm not in the mood to talk to ANYONE, its hard to talk to my mom even and its also taking me EVERYTHING I have in me just to write this much of a blog. I haven't the energy or the want. Please know that I AM ok and I WILL be ok. Please don't worry, I'll be my old bloggin usual self, eventually =)

Update on Logan's legs

*sigh* So, Logan's appointment went better than I thought. It was pretty informative. There are several things that they're looking at. He DOES see the fact that his legs/feet are not straight. He walks on his tip toes and his feet/ankles turn and roll in and he noticed all of that. Although like ALL orthos (mom's that have been through this, back me up!) they don't agree with braces and just like I figured he tried to tell me they were a bad idea. However, physical therapy will make that final call. We had to go upstairs to the lab where they drew blood for a test called CPK(not positive on what that means, you'll have to google it) they also took xrays which came back surprisingly normal. His bones are completely straight and developed like they should be, so the feet and ankle issue LOOKS like its going to be quite possibly a tendon/ligament issue. He did mention something bout a possible MILD MILD case of cerebral palsy because he was born so early(its not as scary as it sounds) All I'm waiting on now is a call from PT to get an appointment and decide where we go from there. We also have to follow up with the ortho in 6 mos to see how things are correcting. Will keep you all updated!

we have a diagnosis....

That diagnosis is called tibial torsion(go look it up lmao) its apparently pretty common, BUT generally by Logan's age it has self corrected. They tend not to treat it because it IS a self correcting issue, there are several reasons that they do treat it though and they are:

*torsion worsening(Logan's has been STEADILY getting worse since he was 11mos old)
*frequent tripping(again, something else that concerns me b/c this causes him to trip)
*difficulty wearing shoes(all of his shoes hurt him no matter how big I get them)

and i'm sure there's another one, but I don't remember and I'm too lazy to look it back up. He is also extremely flat footed. So we go to Nemours on tuesday to see the ortho. I'm stoked that his appointment is so close, usually it takes MONTHS but they happen to have a cancellation and we were able to get in(YAY!!) the only set back is that his actual appointment time is 7:45a.m. so we have to be there even EARLIER than that. BLAH!

Trying to reassure myself...

So, Logan finally has a check up today. I've been putting it off for a really long time...a REALLY long time. The other day I finally noticed something that MADE me make that appointment. One of his feet roll in, well they both do it, but its not nearly as apparent in one foot as it is in the other. Even when he's standing you can see it. Just before he turned 1, I was concerned with his feet, he was looking more and more pigeon toed every day, but the doctor said that its something they normally outgrow when they start walking. Well, he's STILL kinda pigeon toed, but we're still dealing with the feet rolling in. He falls constantly, and I really think its due to that ankle rolling in. He also walks and runs up on his tip toes and I'm not really sure why. I'm still trying to tell myself that maybe its just my imagination, BUT his father had to wear braces on his feet/ankles when he was a baby so maybe that's where its going to have to go. If that's the case, we'll deal with that. Its not such a big deal. Just bothers me to know that something is wrong obviously and I'm just now catching it! No matter what the pediatrician says I'm demanding that he give us a refferral to the orthopedic doctor because I'm tired of hearing "he'll grow out of it". Well, that may be the case, but in the mean time he's going to see an orthopedic doctor and I'll have his dad's history in tow. I'll update after we see the doctor today and let you know where things are going!